Everything in my body shakes that day ,is this marriage?

i m from an arabic country so to make it obvious,if you see i have poor English,dont lecture me .

i married a man and Of course i was a virgin (whether i m muslim or not virginity Do count in The Middle east*

my mother told that i have to bleed or it will be a problem .i was totally freaked out and afraid to death .It was like the worst nightmare every girl dreamed though i didn